“There’s a loneliness that only exists in one’s mind. The loneliest moment in someone’s life is when they are watching their whole world fall apart, and all they can do is blink.” ― F. Scott Fitzgerald
The last few days have been spent in a fog. He is on holiday, surrounded by family and friends and does not return to work again until the 9th. I have given Him space as I know the last few weeks have taken their toll on Him. I know it was particularly difficult for Him to let go of another sub He had. He had told me he felt like he was slipping. I have not let Him go, I can never do that. I send Him a message once or twice a day and leave it at that with no expectation of response. I will wait, I will always wait for Him until He dismisses me.
My messages go unread, likely deleted even. I accept and calmly center myself, awaiting His return. I trust Him and His methods. There is always a reason for everything He does.
For now, I will just go on existing in this fog, missing the words of He who owns me.
it serves Him 